homesick

if you've ever lived abroad you know the feeling. it kicks in about 2 months after you arrive, after the initial excitment of being in a new country wears off. i don't mean to say i am depressed or anything, just that i have been thinking lately about family and friends and about how far away they are. more than anything, i miss jude and evan because i can't call them or email them and i worry that jude will forget who i am while i am gone. i had a dream the other night that i came back and went into their house and jude looked at me and said, "wowo! you're here!" it's what he used to always say whenever i went over to visit..and it always made me smile so big. (he calls me "lolo", but can't pronounce his l's too well) i wonder if when i get back he will know the alphabet, if he will be singing songs. hell, at the rate he's been going, he may have built a computer by now.
and little evan, who was just a squirmy little 6 weeks old when i left, will be 7 months old when i get home. she will be a new person entirely, with her own personality and smile. here are some family pics. if you aren't in there, it does NOT mean i don't love you, it just means i don't have any pictures of you in my iphoto...